I have lived only one day of my life that you were not alive, that was today,
You will no longer suffer as you are with Jesus; it is only your shell where you now lay.

They can not cover you with makeup to make you look like you are just asleep,
And I can not stand over your lifeless body momma and hold your ice cold hand while I weep.

The night that you left us and went to live in Heaven, it was I who saw you last,
I wish I would have hugged and kissed you but momma you just went so fast.

I grieve for you momma like I have never grieved before and the pain is so immense,
You know momma that I am different and to most the way I grieve will not make sense.

Sitting next to your lifeless shell in this funeral home is traditionally what people expect,
By no means my dear Mother, is this in any way a lack of love or respect.

I can not mourn for you as others do as my pain I can not share,
And the thought of seeing you lay there lifeless is one that I can not bare.

As I grieve for you in my own way momma which many will not understand
Know that I send you the most love, respect, and honor as I reach up to you in the Heavens with my hand.

You were the best mother, grandmother, daughter, and wife; you certainly did your part,
I can only hope to fill the gaping hole of sadness that your leaving has left in my heart.


I love you Mother with all of my heart,
Cheryl